Life is Unpredictable...

Life is mysterious and nobody knows exactly what it could be after couples of year… but we can predict our future by present. Right now what we do is matter for tomorrow but nobody can say exactly. It’s just fucking prediction. 

Nobody give a shit what their life might be. All the youth keep partying all night and all day as there is no more tomorrow. Sometime when I see such youth I feel overwhelm. Feel like I am heading toward wrong direction. Why the hell do I need to worry about my unknown future and why should I keep distraction with such ideology about future.

Nobody knows how long we could survive in this messy world. If we are lucky enough then might be sixty or seventy years if not then will be expiring tomorrow. One of my friend told me “life is like ice-cream, keep enjoy until or unless it melt away.” At the moment I don’t understand what exactly he means. “What the hell he is talking about? Does he really wanna suffer after couples of year enjoyment?” such psyche emerges at the moment. Because I was graduate from high school and looking for college and my brain was covered with mama ideology.

While in college I saw lots of youth who don’t care about their future. They attend class but they don’t give a shit. Whenever I see such it makes me more and more curious about their ideology and what are up to. So finally I decided to be friends with them and tell them nothing is so impossible in this world. There are so many good things to be done left. 

With each day I spend more time with these crazy friends instead of showing them good way I was trap like mouse by its cheese. I started smoking, drinking, and partying all night with lots of stranger. The strange thing is that since I start smoking and drinking I am getting more and more friends and I started spending whole days with bunch of asshole with smoke and royal stag or beer. I started quitting class even if I attend I slept at last bench or teasing hot chicks.

When I was out of money I lie my parents, relative and friends with time they started giving me so many excuse. And my friends start ignoring me because I was out of source. I keep getting warning from principal about the fee as well as from my owner. Even if I tell the truth neither my parents nor my relative believe me. There was nothing left in my apartment coz I already sold out everything from iphone to my laptop except my R15. I have no option then selling my R15 to cover up my college and apartment fee. So I did it.

I regret what I did for my family, relative and good friends. I keep crying like a baby but it helped me nothing. So, I decided to do something which will give me my past life. Since then I started doing part time job as a reception in a hotel, casher in restaurant and so on. Right after college I started taking tuition from friends and gradually I quit smoking as well.

 Nothing is impossible in this world unless you have heart for something. I was neither topper in college nor a loser; I did what I could after such circumstance. I finished my college life with so many up and down. I challenge my life and what about you? And one more thing; never ever think as I thought once. Your real friends are those one who will support or help you when you really need them. Better to be mama boy and having mama ideology….

(I wanna thank my friend for this story…and thank you for your time.)

"As i grow older, much older, I will experience many things, and I will hit rock bottom again and again. Again and again I will suffer, again and again I will get back on my feet. I will not be defeated. I won't let my spirit be destroyed."
―Banana Yoshimoto