8th Jule 2015
That early morning, I prayed as my little heart was
conquered by doubts and anxieties. After done with praying, once again I faced
the mirror and practiced what I had to speak in front of those peoples. Through my speech I had to make them to
believe my struggle and how hard it was for me to overcome all these obstacles.
After all I came all way from India to Pokhara just for this speech.
It’s was not just a speech to sell something worth million
but it’s all about who am I and what am I? I might be born and raised up in
Nepal but in my vein, the Khampa’s blood circulates every bit of nanosecond. I
was lost in thought, suddenly a door knock and I was called for breakfast by
little princess. I was taking shelter in one of my good childhood friend’s
home, she was talented and veracious. A yummy breakfast was already set on a
round table, while having breakfast she asked me if anything is disturbing me. She
consoled me and lightens my heavy heart with illustrating beautiful story.
She combed my long messy hair as if I was her small child. While
she was combing, I practiced and arranged the words in my brain silently. She
wished me for the positive result as if I was going for job interview in a big
company. With each step closer to the office, the rhythm of my heart becomes
louder and sweating profusely from my brown shinny forehead.
I drank a whole bottle of water to quench both my
temperature and thirst. Before entering the office, once again I went through
my files and analysis again and arranged the words systematically. I took a
deep breath to calm myself but when I found all the eyes were on me. I became
nervous and words are not coming from my throat easily “a…a….a” After some up
and down with my words structure for some time, gradually their present doesn’t
bother me at all. Words are flowing one after another faster than I had
expected. I don’t know how; I couldn’t realize that I was speaking fast unless
I was stopped and told me to relax. Somehow my confidence was already built up,
so I shared them my documents that I had collected so far in five long years.
After completed the presentation, I was told to wait outside
for their discussion. I waited for five minutes outside listening to my own
heart beat which was quite loud. In my brain, so many things are coming on
mostly negatives. I went outside to light a cigarette and after smoking just
like in high school I ate two chew-gums. Once again I waited outside and in
each five minutes, I peek through the window and tried to listen their debates. I was summons in the office by a clerk. I
took a seat and gave my ear and activate my brain to collect all the data as
possible. But they hadn’t done discussion yet because three of the members are
still not satisfied with my documents even thou majorities had a given positive
responded. The reason for saying no was nothing significant but enclosed my
childhood tattled. Those were just a scuttlebutt. Somehow at last, I got what I
seek for from them and I am really happy.
From this speech and the way the board members made their
decision taught me knowledge. First and most significance, I realized that I
should practice my public speaking.
Although the board members are the one to serve their people not to put
them in troubles even thou, one shouldn’t make their decision easily. As there
are scumbags who create stories and does business in the name of government. So
therefore we should always be careful while taking decision.
